akademisches selbstgespräch, or 'i'm cracking up'

quoting betsy erkkila, pg 566:
This apparent split between the deauthorizing [sic] deconstructive, and more philosophical project of poststructuralist theory and the reconstructive, and more specifically political project of ethnic, gay, and women’s studies in the United States has led to a resistance to theory – or at least a challenge to its white, male, heterosexist, and Eurocentric terms – among some of those most marginalized and excluded in traditional accounts of American culture and in the academy.
– apart from the fact that she can’t distinguish deconstruction from poststructuralism either (whoohoo, I am not alone!!!), she opens up an interesting idea: only those for whom the identity question doesn’t matter in the first place, because they are already in the dominant discourse group (‘white, male, heterosexist, and Eurocentric’), argue for the irrelevance of authorship --> but it does matter for those outside the dominant discourse in order to join the party eventually!!! because in order to become dominants, they would have to present their arguments to the main discourse (within which distinctions don’t exist, because they don’t have to be argued about because everyone agrees upon them from the start) in order to change the main discourse eventually, which seems like a contradiction in terms

pg 570:
Although their work has not counted as “theory,” ethnic, gay, and women writers might be said to have provided historically the “theoretical” grounds for poststructuralist “practice” by challenging the white male heterosexual subject of western and specifically American liberal ideology.
– so, in a way the minorities made their voices heard which lead to the ‘abolition’ of authorship in poststructuralism and, involuntarily, robbed them of their voice in return??? and the notion of identity is Eurocentric in itself, so it can’t be applied outside European cultures anyway. gnf! boy, am I lucky that Wales is not in Asia!!!!! but then again there’s the Welsh concept of the gwerin… NARGH!!!!!

the blue colour is me tying my brain into knots. somehow i have the feeling i'll never make it to fame and fortune. especially since i cannot distinguish between poststructuralism and deconstruction. not even if my life depended on it.

to sum it up in one word: FAIL!